Published on May 3, 2005 By wannit In Misc
My inner critic is always there waiting to emerge and cause problems for me. She always seems to speak her mind about anything that is bothering her about me, or if I've done something wrong. When my inner critic comes out she is sarcastic, alundt, and moody. She's always there to tell me how stupid, lazy, and what a big baby I am. In some instancess, she is there to calm me down and encourage me when I need it. She can be funny at times and make me cry at others. Sometimes I listen to her, but here recently I've been listening to myself. My inner critic can cause my depression to flare up if I don't keep an eye on her. I used to let her take over all my feelings which drug me down all the time. She's made me think that my life was not worth living, and I've tried to kill myself on several occassions. She's not very encouraging to me. I finally got tried of her doing this to me, so I started medication and counseling. I feel a lot better now and I plan to stay that way I also had a chemical imbalance that left me sick all the time. I was constantly missing work.. I decided one day to have a Gastric Bypass to improve my health, self-esteem, and attitude towards myself. After that my inner critic has quieted down a lot. I am a whole new person. I had to name my inner critic it would be Lonely Lady. I'm doing better and so is she. I'm not lonely anymore and my low self esteem is getting higher every day.
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